Golf ball size hail pounded on the roof and windows of the house tonight not to mention two of my cars reminding me that it is good to have insurance.
After the storm passed I took a look outside to see if there was any visible damage and didn’t see anything.
Hopefully the morning will provide a similar view and no need for a conversation with an insurance adjuster. We shall see but in the interim I am picturing inside my head the lightning storm I watched after the hail had passed.
It was due east of me and spectacular, a late spring, almost early summer blast of nature.
Stood there and tried to come up with an expression in English and couldn’t get the words I wanted.
There are a couple of phrases in Hebrew that I played around with, but nothing quite got the feel I wanted.
Streaks of electricity raced across the sky but there was no thunder accompanying them which led me to believe they were even further from me than I thought.
While I looked up I thought about a couple of dreams and ideas and wondered if maybe it was time to let go of them or take a different approach.
Inside my head I heard, What’s For You Won’t Go Past You.
You Can’t Do Anything More
Various people have shared that expression with me and to an extent I have accepted it. Perhaps not as willingly as some might hope for me because I think Emerson is on to something.
But I do believe there is some sort of luck that isn’t tied to effort too. What I can’t tell you is how to quantify or measure it in any way that makes sense.
Can’t tell you anything that would satisfy a scientist, mathematician or anyone who wants to rely solely upon hard data.
What I know is there is something else and that I have a hard time with “you can’t do anything more” but recognize there is a time when you have to accept that.
A time where you have done all you can do. A time where you have pulled in every resource you know to use and done all that you could come up with.
And once you hit that place a smart man stops banging his head against a wall and let’s whatever else is out there take over.
Either things develop and move in a way that allows you to proceed or they don’t.
In the interim you secure energy to focus on other more pressing issues and do your best not to worry about what you can’t control.
It is not easy, but sometimes it is necessary.
I think that is where I am at.
Time to let go and focus elsewhere. If it is really meant for something more there will be reason to focus upon it and if not, well the time for bloodying my knuckles is over.
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