Got CSN&Y’s essential music playing on iTunes and have finished Suite:Judy Blue Eyes and am in the middle of Ohio wondering how many kids know the song, let along what it is about.
Perhaps it is fitting that Teach Your Children is on deck followed by Our House because things are on my mind.
Things I have barely touched upon in videos and things I have written about in passing here and with greater clarity elsewhere.
Got this feeling about some of it that is best described as maybe it is an uncertain certainty because in concept it might seem unlikely but in practice inevitable.
Because sometimes the unplanned and unexpected materialize in the most unusual and unexpected ways. If I said that years ago I predicted certain things would come to pass somewhere between 54 and 55 you’d probably shake your head at me.
I know because I have done the same.
No doubt in my mind that freewill exists but have seen some particularly strange things come to pass making me think there might be something else out there.
Don’t care if that makes me seem crazy to some because I have a touch of insanity as we all do. It is part of life and the biggest measure of success in life still comes down to our acting as the captain of our own ship.
Make your own luck and don’t rely upon the sea to be calm or rough. It is indifferent to people.
A Billion Stars In The Sky
I have had the good fortune to view the night sky from a variety of places and continents. Been out far enough away from the city lights to see a billion stars in the sky.
And just in case I wasn’t convinced that was how it looked all over I remember when the Northridge earthquake knocked out power for tens of miles around Los Angeles.
That was a night sky relatively few Angelenos and or visitors have witnessed but I saw it.
Even those who are more of the indoor city types cannot but help to imagine the majesty and magic of a billion stars in the night sky.
Reminds me as well of what it is like to be out at sea and to see whales. Creatures that are so large it is impossible not to be impressed especially when you see them slip beneath the water and realize there is no evidence of their passage.
Imagine a creature 50 feet long and about 60,000 pounds being swallowed by the deep and recognize there could be many more swimming alongside them without you having any sense of their being around.
It is an exceptional experience.
I’ll Figure It Out
Got a particularly challenging moment that I am in the middle of that has my brain working overtime that got more complicated today.
During the midst of a portion of it someone said they thought I was digging too far into the future and worrying too much about things that might not come to be.
I nodded my head and heard the voices of the elders tell me not to buy trouble and shrugged my shoulders and smiled.
I know who and what I am and didn’t get stuck in the minutiae here. This is me playing chess and mulling the various moves that I can make and assessing the potential pitfalls and positive outcomes.
“I’ll figure it out. I am not worried about this particular thing at the level you think I am.”
Didn’t add the line in my head that “says I know things” or mention this too is an uncertain certainty. Didn’t say Can You Hear Me & Will You Listen because it wasn’t necessary.
None of this is about convincing anyone other than me that I will figure it out and I don’t need to be convinced. It is what I do.
This particular situation has some complexity that makes it more challenging, but I haven’t played all of my cards yet and I can another six or seven rounds before I get close to that point.
Mostly it reminded me of the importance of experience. The things I want to try again are because of past experience and the reason I am confident about them and this is because of experience.
So people get readyThere’s a train a-comin’You don’t need no baggageYou just get on boardAll you need is faith
People Get Ready- Curtis Mayfield & The Impressions
I appreciate your coming around and reading. Thank you.
I’ve often wondered. As I receive these emails daily, I often have the need to read, and sometimes it matters to me. Sometimes it makes me feel something.
And at the same time I wonder at how you can do this everyday, nearly, without break.
And then I wonder at my ineptitude for commenting, even once, and doing basic tasks here and there. This needs to stop today, and so something else has got to take this place, and I am thinking of filling this empty space with hope and work.
The stopping took years. It ended in an instant, but don’t get me wrong, this instant is a huge cause-and-effect bonanza, and this is only the start.
Going to read “Can You Hear Me & Will You Listen?” now.
To the future, as uncertain as it is certain.