A Trip To The E.R.

You never expect a fuse to blow and for the treadmill to suddenly stop, especially moments after you watched some guy in the Olympics crash.

I wasn’t going as fast as he was nor was I on my back but the unexpected stop of the track almost sent me flying off of the treadmill.

Reflexes still work well enough for me to have grabbed the rails and kept myself from being upended but my back didn’t appreciate the unexpected stop.

We’ll see what it feels like tomorrow, might not feel great, but maybe it will be ok. What is a little wrenching of muscles that don’t have the same elasticity they did at 20.

Wasn’t as bad as when I dislocated my finger a few years back. It could have easily turned into a trip to the E.R.

That would have been kind of embarrassing.

One doesn’t want to travel with a wrenched back or worse, let alone have to say that it happened on a damn treadmill.

Had the power not unexpectedly flipped none of this would have happened. Certainly not the kind of electric shock that I prefer.

What Do You Know About Me/You/Others?

The New York Times had an article about the mile high club that led me to a different article they called The 36 Questions That Lead to Love.

It is about a psychological study that explores whether intimacy can be accelerated by discussing a set of personal questions. Vulnerability leads somewhere or so this study suggests.

Reminds me of some activities we did at camp and in some other areas of my life. I don’t know that they were looking for us to make love connections when we did these. We just called them ice breakers.

But It certainly helped highlight similarities and differences with others. I suppose if there was a physical attraction this kind of knowledge helped increase or decrease it.

Sometimes the beautiful/handsome woman/man you had an interest in could become less attractive or even ugly by simply speaking.

And I would imagine that if you spent time speaking with someone you had never seen in person and felt like you had a connection an attraction could grow too.

Connection can be a pretty powerful thing. You know when you have it and you know when you don’t. Hell, sometimes people intentionally ignore it because it is so strong it scares them.

Anyhoo, I wonder how many people could answer some of those questions accurately.

The right answers are going to be subjective but I would think that there wouldn’t have to be just one for many of them.

But I suppose the two biggest questions in general for me are tied into how easy it is communicate with someone and how easy is it to spend time with them.

Told my eldest those two elements were the big secret, at least in my mind.

Edgy & Antsy

I am feeling edgy and antsy about a couple of things and it is aggravating me.

Why?

Because it seems irrational and a waste of time/energy. Nothing is going to be made any better by wondering or worrying about it.

If anything it is going to be made into a bigger deal than it needs to be and the anticipation that comes with it will do nothing but add wrinkles and remove hair.

What is the utility in such a thing.

It is not even a question.

So every day I have been doing a a 15 minute guided meditation to take the edge off. I can’t tell you what happens after the third minute or so because I get lost somewhere.

But it is lost in a good way and for the next 12 minutes I am in a different place.

Figure if I keep working on it I’ll get better at getting myself into that zone and be able to put myself there faster or so the theory goes.

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Just realized my neck feels a little sore. For a moment I couldn’t figure out for the life of me what I did to it and then I remembered…the treadmill.

That could have been uglier.

Wasn’t horrible, I am upright and maybe I’ll have a moment or two of discomfort. Might be longer, hard to say some things don’t go away as fast as they used to.

Got a couple of things that I’ll need to talk to a doc about but to the best of my knowledge I am not dying tomorrow or next week.

Would be my preference to stick around for a bit. May not be looking to become the next TV celebrity out of Texas but I have things I want to do.

Experiences I want to have for a first time and some I want to try again.

Some of the ones on that try again list are off pretty big importance to me. They could influence a few decisions. If possible I’d rather they not live in the “something you did but won’t ever do again” but some our ability to influence some things are limited.

Fortunately my ability to grab the damn rails and keep from flying off wasn’t limited. Got a little gratitude nothing much happened and some ideas for a new story.

Might try putting some of it upon paper when I stop working cleaning up and writing on the other joints I manage.