Here’s a piece of fiction to start this new post
The Hand On The Back Of Your Head
He told me the thing he remembered the most wasn’t the silver bracelets that kept his arms behind his back or the smell of a car interior in desperate need of an odor neutralizer.
Nor was it the chatter of the radio or cackling of the people who saw him get his silver bracelets.
It was a hand.
“The hand on the back of your head stays with you. That rough push down that they do to keep you from banging it on the door frame is the clearest sign that you are not seen as a human.
It is a rough shove like they would give livestock they are guiding into the barn, which I guess is kind what happens.
Because they lead you to a barn or maybe a pen is a better word and lock you in.”
I backed into a pole about three weeks ago and killed my left tail light. Can’t remember if I wrote about it here or not but it ticked me off.
It took place in my new car, which actually is about a year old, which means it really isn’t new, but it is not old either.
Happened during a rainstorm after I had driven a good 200 feet in reverse. I was less than happy because I had been very careful to avoid the F150s that lined either side of me and had taken it slow.
But the pole that struck my vehicle was the same height as the tail light so it was a perfect storm during the storm.
Cost me $350 out of pocket to replace the casing and tail light.
You could argue that helped me avoid a different adventure in which there could have been an accident in which serious injury took place and or led to a moment with a hand on the back of my head.
Gratitude came from having the spare cash to handle the unexpected bill and to try to spin this as an adventure in the not so new car.
You could also say I still want to kick myself in the butt for having to waste that cash, but sometimes things happen.
You Don’t Have To Understand
60 Minutes ran a story on How Israel’s Mossad tricked Hezbollah into buying explosive pagers that I have shared with multiple people.
It’s like something out of a James Bond movie but it is also something that you can look at as an example of patience and creative problem solving. It ties into the reasoning for why I purchased an Apple watch early in the year.
I decided I had to make more changes in my life and that I needed some more tools that would help me do so. Tools that would help with accountability and enable me to do things on an incremental level.
That sort of incremental change is really tough because I am impatient about some things. I want to see movement far faster than it is sometimes reasonable to ask.
But when I slow down and take a look I see the improvement and changes in multiple areas. I see the best finances I have seen in decades, an almost middle aged body that is showing signs that it responds to exercise and multiple other positive elements.
Some have asked me what I am doing and I have shaken my head and told them they don’t have to understand. I have a vision and I am moving forward. I am making investments in myself and building the future I want to see.
It may not be happening as fast as I want but it is happening. There may be some hiccups and some bruises along the way but it is happening.
Some of those who have been a part of the past will not make it much past the present. I am ok with that because I am the captain of my ship and creating my future.
Change is not easy, but stagnation is worse and I refuse to accept it any longer than I have. These aren’t just words on the page here or elsewhere.
These are my promises to myself and I will fulfill them.
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