Crossroads came on during my workout and it made me reflect upon a bunch of thoughts and ideas, one of which is it is time to visit the kingdom again.
Been a while since the gates were open wide and the castle was occupied. For a long while I thought it was probably going to be time to clean it up, close it down and or sell it.
But life has a way of throwing curve balls at you and so I had reason to wander through and consider potential opportunities and next steps.
Came to the conclusion that I couldn’t make certain choices and decisions without taking other steps and engaging in other conversations.
Bided my time and took care of a variety of other things while I reflected upon it some more and came back to the same spaces and places.
Sometimes we can leave some questions unanswered and walk away without any concern and sometimes we need to find answers.
There are more gray hairs showing up on the sides of my head and in my beard but not enough yet for it to be easily seen in pictures but I can see the time coming.
Vanity And Sanity
Sometimes as I walk through the gym I remind myself of the importance of distinguishing between vanity and sanity.
I am getting better at adjusting my workouts to reflect where I am today and where I want to go. Better at not trying to turn the clock back at the speed with which I wish to.
Better at working to build a body that is appropriate for now and later as opposed to what the younger guy thought was of value.
There are moments where I am mildly irked by certain changes and things because some physical changes are irritating.
The mystery aches and pains that sometimes appear uninvited and unexpected aren’t welcome but they happen.
The extra effort to lift things that used to be easy isn’t particularly fun either but on the other hand I can still do most of what I want.
I just have to pivot and adjust which isn’t such a bad thing.
There aren’t many men my age in the gym who do as I do. There aren’t many to compare notes with or ask questions of and that is ok.
I can figure most of it out myself, but there are moments where I have a few questions I would ask. Can’t ask the twenty somethings or their younger brethren.
Had a couple of the thirty and forty somethings complain to me which made me snort. I expect that some of those guys who are older than I am might snort at my concerns.
The most important thing is to stay active and to keep moving forward. I see too many beginning to slow down and talk about life as if they are a tree.
I may be rooted to some things but I am not planted in a way that prevents growth. Change can be scary but it can be exhilarating and necessary too.
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